Today I got back from "vacation"... actually a long weekend in Dallas with Jay. We went to see Michael Buble... I had a great time... full of relaxation, rest, fun and eating. I tried to eat well, and watched what I put in my mouth.
Well, I woke up this morning, had breakfast and drove home (a little more than 3 hours) and thought, I'll weigh, just to see what damage I had done over the weekend. I got on the scale and...
258.7 lbs!
Yes... I know... I hit the next milestone! I actually am in the 50's! ... I can't tell you the last time i saw those numbers... well, actually I can... my sophomore year of high school... but before that and after that it was right back up there at 289.9 lbs! And now... yes, I have lost 31.2 lbs! YES!!! Can you believe it! I want to just celebrate!... maybe I will... by watching a movie on the couch with my doggie.
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February 29, 2008
Today I went to chick-fil-a for dinner... a late dinner. I haven't been going for lunch/dinner because it is so hard to resist the waffle fries! OH... just the thought of them makes my mouth water! I LOVE those fries... with their little holes and all.
Well, today I went... And I got to the drive thru and said...."And I'd like fruit instead of fries please"... can you believe that! I did it! I got past the temptation and made it! It didn't help that the picture of the fries were staring right back at me... but I got the fruit and it was very good.... but....well...um...uh .... the fries still would have been very tastey.
February 24, 2008
Today I got back from going home to College Station for my grandfather's 80th birthday. Well, I haven't been home for about 2 months... so this would be the first time in a while for my family to see me... since I've been losing weight. Well, when I walked in, the first thing my mom said was "LOOK AT YOU!"... it made me feel really good about myself. I am always nervous about going home, but this time, things were really good.
Also... just in case you were wondering... things, um you know... things are moving much better now!
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Also... just in case you were wondering... things, um you know... things are moving much better now!
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February 21, 2008
Yeah! I noticed today that the stretch marks on my stomach are very very faint! I looked down, and they weren't there! I had to really look to find where they were! Yeah... that's exciting!
February 17, 2008... the 2nd post
I can't believe my eyes. I am so upset. I knew I was having problems, but not this badly. 
I looked down and all I could do was think... my eyes filled with tears. Even my dog came over to see what was going on... you can see his face in the bottom of the picture. I feel horrible. I knew weight would go up and down... but by 7.4 pounds?!?!?! Are you kidding me?!?!?! I can't stand myself right now. I'm going to bed.
February 17, 2008
I was so close to hitting in the 50's, but I think my thyroid is getting out of wack. I was at 260.0 and then some issues started up. Many of my symptoms are back and causing me to not lose weight. The biggest problem right now is constipation. It isn't horrible, just not regular. I haven't ever had problems with this, but now with the medicine that I'm on... that's one of the side effects. I have my next appointment with my doctor on March 18th so I can talk with him about that then. They said that this could be one of the problems... so I guess I'm seeing it now!
February 14, 2008
Happy Valentine's Day... not my favorite holiday by far! But, I did decide to jump on the scale before I went to bed... I know it is a bad time to weight, but I thought for fun... look what I saw!
February 12, 2008
The funniest thing happened today!
I went to school, dressed in my kacki pants (that are of course too big by quite a bit) and a pink shirt (yes... it's too big as well... but not too bad). I went the entire day, pulling my pants up but I made it through. Then, I got home and was on the phone with a friend. I was walking around the apartment, doing a few things here and a few things there when all of a sudden, I noticed that my pants were at my ankles! MY PANTS FELL DOWN COMPLETELY! I laughed so hard, and had to tell my friend immediately!... she laughed too... and then brought to my attention, that I should be glad that didn't happen at school! WOW!... hadn't thought of that! But yes.... I'm glad that didn't happen there... and that it happened at home. =) It's still really funny!
I went to school, dressed in my kacki pants (that are of course too big by quite a bit) and a pink shirt (yes... it's too big as well... but not too bad). I went the entire day, pulling my pants up but I made it through. Then, I got home and was on the phone with a friend. I was walking around the apartment, doing a few things here and a few things there when all of a sudden, I noticed that my pants were at my ankles! MY PANTS FELL DOWN COMPLETELY! I laughed so hard, and had to tell my friend immediately!... she laughed too... and then brought to my attention, that I should be glad that didn't happen at school! WOW!... hadn't thought of that! But yes.... I'm glad that didn't happen there... and that it happened at home. =) It's still really funny!
February 11, 2008
I finally found an outfit that fits, and that I like! Its some pants from Goodies and a shirt from Target! Can you believe that?!?!?! Those places! Ok... its just some black pants and a dark teal shirt, but they fit, I feel REALLY good in them! I'm going to get some more shirts similar to this one so that I will have more than one! And yes... it is a smaller size! WHOOHOO! Just had to share... I'm going to get a picture today so that maybe I can see a difference. I can't tell that I'm losing weight except from my clothes not fitting and the scale. I just don't see it! AND I WANT TO! Everyone else says they can see it... and I just don't... but maybe today!
February 9, 2008
Last night I went and saw a show... Jersey Boys... with some friends. I have been looking forward to this day since Christmas! I got 4 tickets to go see the show from my aunt, uncle and cousin on Christmas day, and ever since I couldn't wait to have a night on the town and get to dress up after all my weight loss! It was a time to prove to one of my friends that I AM losing weight and that I'm not just doing it to bring attention but to actually do something good for myself. He says that me losing weight is me making myself out to be a martyr of some sort... which is really discouraging! But tonight was my chance.
I had bought this shirt and I couldn't weight to wear it! I bought it a while back, with this night in my plans... not to show off to my friend, but to get to wear something new for my night out! I was so excited... so about an hour before I had to be ready, I tried the shirt on, and it didn't fit! My chest had gotten so much smaller and I just was NOT the same as I was when I bought the shirt! I immediately got upset and depressed about it all. So I thought I'd just go and get a different top from "the Fat Lady Store" also known as Lane Bryant... well, I found something that I thought was cute, tried it on, thought it would work, bought it and came home.... after calling and complaining/whining to my friend... not my best moment. I got home and I tried it on again, and I hated it. I didn't have shoes to wear with it and I just didn't think it looked right... so immediate depression again. I took my shower and ended up wearing a pair of pants that fit and a shirt that I already had that is too big for me. That seems to be the trend... all my clothes don't fit! They are too big, and the second I want to look nice (which is not very often, but becoming more frequent) it is impossible! I get so upset! I know there isn't anything I can do but buy more clothes, but that just isn't always an option. It is very very very frustrating and upsetting. It just makes me feel worse about myself. I don't know if I have 1 thing that I like seeing on myself.
I wish that I could just go anywhere and find something to wear, but I'm still too fat to be able to do that. I only have certain places I can go shop for clothes... I wear a 24 in pants/shorts or a XXL and a 22/24 or XXL in shirts... you can't just find that anywhere... and if you do, it usually is nothing I would like to wear. I always hated having to show in the "big lady" section of the mall when I was in high school and junior high. While other kids were getting to shop all over, I wasn't able to ... even when I wanted to ... more than anything. I wanted to be able to shop at Old Navy, Lerner's, different department stores, American Eagle, Gap... not that I always thought that those places had appropriate clothes, but to just have the option. I have found out that you can order plus sizes on www.oldnavy.com ... which is cool... but once again, it comes down to money all the time. I just can afford new clothes. I kinda went overboard with buying some for the emergency tonight...($86)... and I just can't do that.
I know that losing weight is good for me and I do feel better about myself, sometimes, but when it comes to clothes, I just hate how almost everything fits! I have 1 pair of shorts (workout shorts) that I like because they have a drawstring... other than that I just don't really like ANYTHING I wear or can wear. I have a favorite skirt that I bought... It is SOOOO cute!... but is it WAY TOO BIG on me right now... I can't even wear it. I just hate it. I just am having a really hard time today.
I had bought this shirt and I couldn't weight to wear it! I bought it a while back, with this night in my plans... not to show off to my friend, but to get to wear something new for my night out! I was so excited... so about an hour before I had to be ready, I tried the shirt on, and it didn't fit! My chest had gotten so much smaller and I just was NOT the same as I was when I bought the shirt! I immediately got upset and depressed about it all. So I thought I'd just go and get a different top from "the Fat Lady Store" also known as Lane Bryant... well, I found something that I thought was cute, tried it on, thought it would work, bought it and came home.... after calling and complaining/whining to my friend... not my best moment. I got home and I tried it on again, and I hated it. I didn't have shoes to wear with it and I just didn't think it looked right... so immediate depression again. I took my shower and ended up wearing a pair of pants that fit and a shirt that I already had that is too big for me. That seems to be the trend... all my clothes don't fit! They are too big, and the second I want to look nice (which is not very often, but becoming more frequent) it is impossible! I get so upset! I know there isn't anything I can do but buy more clothes, but that just isn't always an option. It is very very very frustrating and upsetting. It just makes me feel worse about myself. I don't know if I have 1 thing that I like seeing on myself.
I wish that I could just go anywhere and find something to wear, but I'm still too fat to be able to do that. I only have certain places I can go shop for clothes... I wear a 24 in pants/shorts or a XXL and a 22/24 or XXL in shirts... you can't just find that anywhere... and if you do, it usually is nothing I would like to wear. I always hated having to show in the "big lady" section of the mall when I was in high school and junior high. While other kids were getting to shop all over, I wasn't able to ... even when I wanted to ... more than anything. I wanted to be able to shop at Old Navy, Lerner's, different department stores, American Eagle, Gap... not that I always thought that those places had appropriate clothes, but to just have the option. I have found out that you can order plus sizes on www.oldnavy.com ... which is cool... but once again, it comes down to money all the time. I just can afford new clothes. I kinda went overboard with buying some for the emergency tonight...($86)... and I just can't do that.
I know that losing weight is good for me and I do feel better about myself, sometimes, but when it comes to clothes, I just hate how almost everything fits! I have 1 pair of shorts (workout shorts) that I like because they have a drawstring... other than that I just don't really like ANYTHING I wear or can wear. I have a favorite skirt that I bought... It is SOOOO cute!... but is it WAY TOO BIG on me right now... I can't even wear it. I just hate it. I just am having a really hard time today.
February 8, 2008
Tonight I went for a LATE dinner to McDonalds. Nothing special but I went with a friend who helped me realize what I'm putting into my body!
I ordered a nugget Mighty Kids Meal... 6 nuggets, apple dippers (without the carmel) and a small sprite.... 435 calories! My friend ordered a spicy McChicken sandwich, a large french fries, a quarter pounder with cheese and a medium coke... 1655 calories! I couldn't believe it!
There used to be days where eating that many calories was normal... and I'd eat it sometimes twice a day! But now, with eating better, I feel better and definately know I'm doing my body a favor!
I ordered a nugget Mighty Kids Meal... 6 nuggets, apple dippers (without the carmel) and a small sprite.... 435 calories! My friend ordered a spicy McChicken sandwich, a large french fries, a quarter pounder with cheese and a medium coke... 1655 calories! I couldn't believe it!
There used to be days where eating that many calories was normal... and I'd eat it sometimes twice a day! But now, with eating better, I feel better and definately know I'm doing my body a favor!
February 2, 2008
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?!? Ok... is this candid camera? I just weighed... just to see... I've eaten breakfast and a little snackish lunch... and I just weighed 262.7!!! OH MY GOSH! Is that really possible? Wow.
The latest fun thing is the Biggest Loser video... SO GOOD! I've used it a couple times and my body aches after it... but I feel really good about it too! GO GET IT!
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The latest fun thing is the Biggest Loser video... SO GOOD! I've used it a couple times and my body aches after it... but I feel really good about it too! GO GET IT!
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January 28, 2008
I decided I would just see if I lost any weight this morning... OH MY GOSH!... -3.4 pounds!?!?!?!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?!? I can't believe it!!!!! WOW!
YES!!!! THIS ROCKS!
YES!!!! THIS ROCKS!
January 21, 2008
After a strange dream, I made a funny realization... I think I know why losing weight is scary for me... because then I don't have an excuse. If I am overweight, I have an excuse for why I'm not dating and why guys aren't interested in me. But if I lose weight, I won't have that excuse anymore. Then there's something else. I don't know... it is just something that I have been thinking about.
January 15, 2008
There is talk that a year from last sunday (January 13) that we are going to run a half marathon... I don't think I can do it. If I want to though, I'm definately going to have to get to working. I'm really going to work because I want to be able to do it with all my friends!
Also...
Today I went to Jack in the Box for dinner and I had the chicken club salad... IT WAS SO GOOD! I was already full by the end of the salad, and then I realized I hadn't even had the chicken that goes with it! Definately going to keep that in mind!
Also...
Today I went to Jack in the Box for dinner and I had the chicken club salad... IT WAS SO GOOD! I was already full by the end of the salad, and then I realized I hadn't even had the chicken that goes with it! Definately going to keep that in mind!
January 10, 2008
It is 6:13 and I have been trying to get dressed since 6am! Everything I put on, is too huge! I put on one pair of my nice black pants, and you would have thought I tried on a size 500! They wouldn't even stay on my hips. At first I thought I would be able to just do it for the day (since clothes that actually fit are a little scarce around here)... but when I walked from my bathroom to my closet... it was a definate nope! So, that was REALLY exciting... but VERY VERY VERY frustrating... even worse with no sleep and no happy pills. ugh. BUT, the fun part is, I found a pair of pants I didn't know I had... I have had these pants for a few years obviously, because they are a size smaller than what I have been wearing (24 instead of a 26)... and they still had the tags on them. They were still on the hanger from the store!... I put them on and tada!.... yes, the fit.... but now what shirt?!?!?!....oh the issues of losing weight. (but I like it!)
January 7, 2008
Well, here is my first post. I was inspired to do this from People magazine this week. It was about people who were half their size! So I have begun this blog to document my trip down Weight Loss Avenue. Well here's the scoop. Last year in October, I found out that have a thyroid disorder called Hashimoto's disease... along with hypothyroidism. One of the effects that this has on you is a problem with loosing weight... But through the miracle of medicine, I am getting my thyroid levels back on track. Today, over a year later, I have been taking medicine and which allows me to loose weight.
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